Archive for August, 2010

New Beginnings And Endings!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 31, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Well, today still working on the butterfly drawing. Such a big picture with small details, big job for sure. But, I am hoping the end result is way worth it! So far it is really pretty, just tedious. As for my car, the news is for this fuel line, the manufacturer wanted over $300 to make one, since it is an older car and apparently, I am the only person on the planet still driving one. It is a 91 Ford Explorer, I find it hard to believe that little old me is the only  one requiring parts for an older car. Ford is full of it, they should still be making some older parts, not everyone can afford a new car. So, the auto repair shop owner, has located a similar one and is going to try to make it work on my car, thank God for that, I don’t have $300 to fix her, let alone $300 for just a part. Boy, I hope I do win the lottery soon, I am getting a new car, and for spite, it will not be a Ford. So, hopefully I will be getting a call soon and be able to get my car back in working order. Even better news, if it is not too expensive, rent is due this week, probably my last o9nth here. I will have to call the office and put in my 30 notice to break my lease.

On another note, I was watching a program called Weird Or What today. Fascinating snippet on a women who had a DNA anomaly called Chimera. She had gone to try to collect welfare for her children and according to the state legislation where she lived, if I recollect it was California, she had to have DNA done on her family to prove in fact that they were her and her husband’s children. When the results came back it should him as the father of all, and that she was not the mother ( how is that for a Muary episode?). The state contacted her and began to press charges of fraud against her, for trying to swindle the state. So, with the help of her attorney and all of the research done by the department of child welfare and state attorney’s office. They started to test and re-test, even to make sure that she had not surrogated the children for some one else.  In the end it turns out that she has two sets of DNA, how is this possible? Well, as twins form at conception, separate fertilization happens, in her case the twins then rejoined, combining two separate DNA signatures into one whole person. What they found was that her whole body had one DNA, but her uterus and reproductive organs were of a completely separate DNA. In the end, charges were dropped, she was proven to be the mother, and case closed, right? However, I do believe this case opens up a whole new question about the absolute reliability of DNA, and also, whether this and other conditions may affect DNA results. Thought is was fascinating and that I wold share, food for thought today.

Hoping you are having a wonderful day today! All my love to you as always, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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Seeing The Future!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 30, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Well, the new day has risen and a new week begins! Sometimes I wish I could see the future and know that it is all going to be okay. This is one of those times. Still no word on my car, no way to get a job and tomorrow, I will have to call to break my lease, giving me 30 days to get my things in order. It is a scary moment for sure. My hope still remains, that by some miracle, I will be able to remain in the home I have made for myself, at least until the lease ends in the spring. Based on the clouds in my life however, rain looks to be coming my way. The forecast is bleak. Now, I can hope that this storm will pass me, as many do in the real world, but the signs are definitely pointing in another direction. So hope I can, but getting the storm gear ready is not just an option. I must be prepared for the worst. That idea is exhausting, but a necessity no matter how tired I am from it.

Wishing to see past the clouds is a normal reaction to a stressful situation, but a frustrating one as well. Because the truth is, that no matter what my heart says. It is not like a movie, or a book, where I can read a head and see the whole picture in clarity. Gut feelings are a wonderful asset, and my gut tells me all will be well, actually better than well. But, when I open my eyes, I am still surrounded by clouds. When I close them again, I can still feel the happiness, but I cannot see that cloudless day, or what it looks like, or in what way I will feel the joy. The fear of the unknown still prevails, and it constantly wrestles with that feeling of hope and well being, making my mind a battle of wills. Who will prevail in the end, hope must, because the alternative is despair. That is not an option, so daily I fight those dark forces, and wait for the day, that this too shall pass.

Today, I will work some more on the drawing for the butterfly (Lupus) fundraiser, and hope to get good news about my car. Good news that it is ready to be picked up and that the cost is not going to wipe out what little money I have set back. I can hope, that once my car is returned that a job is forthcoming in an asap fashion. Delays and inaction, serve to create fear in my life and the sooner I can refocus on using that energy to be productive, the easier it will be to lift the heaviness from my heart. I am ready for that day, beyond ready. Internal peace is my hope for the next week and month or longer. I am ready for a moment to reflect on all of this, and put it to rest. Weariness tugs at my heart and soul, all I need is a good nap! A break in it all to rest and re-balance. Hope you are having a happy Monday, sending out my love to you as always, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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Clouds In The Sky And In My Heart!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 29, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Hopefully, this won’t come out mellow dramatic. Just saying my peace. Been through a lot this last couple of weeks and seemingly no end in sight yet. Too many reminders today about how sad it is too lose those you love. Funny, how we go along in life with the silly belief, that people we love will be there through thick and thin. Yet, when the chips are down most of them vanish, better and faster than any magician could possibly attempt to do. Like Houdini, David Copperfield, Doug Henning or Criss Angel it is a vanishing act you do not expect and faster than the blink of an eye. It feels like a big black hole just comes along and swallows people up in it, and they seem completely unaware of the change in their environment. It is amazing! Guess that makes me a famous magician, it seems my abilities are far greater than I ever anticipated! It is playful joke, meant in humor. I am the All Powerful Diana! Wonder if I can get a TV show or a network program. Hey, you think HBO would like to do a series on it? My guess is probably not, but it would be a funny show!

The right look on your face, or the right sad tale to tell, can clear o room in an instant. The funny part is they would be offended, if you reciprocated in turn. It seems I spend a lot of my time helping others, when they are distraught, unfortunately, it appears this is generally a one sided deal. Who knew? The ones that do stick by are so rare and so precious, that even gold, platinum or the rarest jewels cannot compete! They have my hearts till death do us part. The love I feel for them is greater than any mountain or the great ocean. They are the real beauty of life itself, the joy of every day and the hope for a better tomorrow. Hope, blessings follow them in everything they do. That goes to all friends or that rare nature, yours and mine alike!

Well, been nutty around here. Ended up with unexpected company and have not been able to work on my drawing. So, not in any way trying to be short, I must return to my plans for the weekend, because time keeps on a running away from me and I still have so much to do. Hoping you are having a wondrous weekend, and that you and yours are blessed, sending out my love to you as always, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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Laughter Is The Best!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 28, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Today was a day full of laughter! All the way around, all the new people I met and the ones I already knew, were about making light of a heavy day. It was a great way to spend a day that could have been a total bummer. It was hot out, barely any customers, and now it looks like rain. I had one $5 sale, and otherwise no business. It was so much fun, just talking about life, people and fun experiences. I have not laughed that much in a long time. Great day! No big lottery win last night, just in case you are wondering. For those of you who have missed it, my goal for the year is to win the big pot! Wish me luck!

I did learn a few pointers on working with Ebay, so I plan to get a page set up there and see how that works, I am game, especially since I still do not have wheels. Got to do what I can to make an income, anything, to bring a rainbow into this cloudy moment in my life. Always looking for the silver lining, I don’t know any other way to do things. Also, hoping that if I can manage to get a job this week, that somehow I can work it out to do the art show next weekend. I know I haven’t had a lot of luck at it, but I am hoping the holiday weekend will be better! Got make money some how! I made a couple of new friends today and that was really nice.

Hoping to soak in a tub next and just relax and enjoy a quiet evening at home, while I still have one! Not sure how long that will last and when my next moment of quiet time will be available, so tonight is all about down time! Maybe a cocktail and some drawing, mostly just enjoying my own company! Hey, it could be worse. Hoping where ever you are, you enjoyed your day as much as I did and am going to. Still working on the butterfly drawing, it is going to have many butterflies on it, and it is big, so It is going to take a minute! But as soon as it is done I will share it with you, I promise.

Well, a funny moment to share. I met a new person today, his name was Kenny. Really nice guy, and as we were talking he mentioned that he has been called a twink! Now, I am new to this term and had to ask. As the story goes, another young man (gay), mentioned to him,that he thought Kenny was a twink. So, I asked, what is a twink? He replied that in the gay community a twink is a gay man who is young and likes to look good. Kenny has a thing for hair gel, so because he takes pride in his appearance, the other man thought he was a twink. Which I laughed about, because, during our conversation, it became very apparent, Kenny is not a gay man at all. So I began calling him a twinkie, not sure what to call him now! He is just a guy who likes to look nice, standing joke of the day. I met a twinkie!Hope you have a wonderful night, lots of quiet time for me ahead, sending out my love to you, as always, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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And Soon It Begins!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 27, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Well, today was a long hot one at the art show, no one but me there, and dead as can be. No sales, obviously plus hot and sweaty. I am tired, still trying to debate if I have enough energy to eat something tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, there are supposed to be several others out there as well ( I hope so). Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. The car shows will not be in town till next week or the week after, I am hoping to be able to go out there on those weekends. I also, have to plan doing a yard sale, very quickly, to liquidate some of my household items. Moving really is not fun, especially with no job, and at this time no car. It really has to get better! The next few weeks will be very busy. Have to find a job, move my stuff, into storage or another home or both, got to find those places first, yard sale and hopefully selling some stuff and artwork as well. The cash will be most welcome!

On another note, I have started a drawing of butterflies for the fund raiser our group is working on, it might take me all weekend to finish, but at least I have begun. It is starting out, kind of cool, and if I can pull off what I see in my head, it should be really nice, it is a big print 18″ x 24″, if memory is correct. Things are really quiet here, no one home but me, relaxing and soothing in a way. Very much looking forward to be past this struggle in my life, really excited to see where it will take me next. A little cautious, and maybe some trepidations, but happy and curious to see the finish line as well. Ready to go work on my drawing, it is hard to stay focused on writing with so much to do! I figure, I was given all this time off for a reason and need to rest up and get ready for the next phase. I will keep you posted and be happy to show the drawing as soon as I complete it.

On the lottery note, I checked my tickets on the way home and won $8, not the big win I was looking for. But, on the upside, it was enough money to play another week for free! Every little bit helps at his point in my life! Wish me luck this weekend, I really do need some good news to go with all the crazy news. I have been told I have windfall luck, in other words, all my luck comes at once. So, I figure with all the madness of not so good news, it is only fair that some really good news is on its way. If only to counteract all the other! Hoping you are having a wonderful weekend, and enjoying life to the fullest. All my love as always, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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Car Drama And A Few Other Things

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 26, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Well, this morning, I called the auto repair shop about my car, just wanted to be updated about what was happening. The gas leak, turns out wasn’t the fuel injectors at all, it was a fuel line at the top of the motor. The problem at this point is locating the part. Apparently, because of the year of my car, it is not an easy part to find, not so common (it is a 91). He is currently shopping around to find this line, and as soon as he can get it, he will be making the repair. The battery light issue, he believes is the alternator, so I have asked him to fix that while he has my car, and the transmission problem turns out was a vacuum hose that was not put back on the car, or fell off during the drive home. His concern was that if I drove it too far, I may have caused damage to the transmission. I only drove it around the block, and even then I drove it slowly, because I knew it wasn’t shifting. For anyone checking in on me, that is the status on my car. Obviously, I am not sure when I will get it back or how much more it will cost, but the good news is she should be good for a while, once this is done.

The job search is none existent, with no vehicle to check on jobs, go to interviews or go to work in, that has been pointless. It does not help either, that I don’t even have a set day for my car to be returned to me. So, I have been spending my time really focusing on me. Taking time to calm myself and realistically narrowing down any options for survival I have at my disposal. The solution to where I am going to live, and how I am going to pay for it all, is bleak. There is at this point only two weeks to get it together and even if I have my car back before Monday and get a job, there is no guarantee, that a check will arrive before I have to be out. Lots of meditating, and praying, and excepting going on around here. Focusing on me and pulling myself together, the better presentation I make, the better of a chance I have at getting work and money. Until, I get my car back, that is my homework.

As for the weekend, it is possible that Sherry will be coming to get me, and I will make another attempt to sell some of my art and crafts this weekend. There is a car show coming into town and a few other events. With any luck at all, it will be busy, and I can make some money, it is much needed here, seems to be more and more like that every day! I just have to hang in there a little longer and things should naturally start going up again. Anything that falls down will go up, so her I wait at the drop, the bounce up is inevitable. Hoping you are having a wonderful day, and that your week is going smoothly, all my love, diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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Officially Grounded!

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on August 25, 2010 by dianaswonderworks

Well, sorry about the lapse yesterday, it was an adventure. Got up and got all ready to go job hunting. I got online and filled out some applications and sent out resumes. So, after filling out all those, I got ready to leave. I went out started my car and the first thing I noticed was that my battery light was one. It hadn’t done that before and I just replaced my battery within the last year. So, I thought that was weird, then I backed out of the driveway, and then proceeded to go forward, and all of a sudden the car started making rattling noises, like a chain clanking in the transmission. That scared me, so I took my foot off the gas and it stopped. I got to the stop sign by my house and thought well I will take it into the shop again. I turned my car in the direction of the shop and as she wound up to shift gears, it started winding up and up and never shifted, then the rattling sound came back. At this point I got really scared, so I turned back into my sub-division, and continued to the house. I got home and woke up my room mate to have him check it out.

He got out of bed and went out to check the car all the way saying, she was running great when I brought her home from the repair shop yesterday. He had said that to me, and I emphasized the point that I had not driven her since she was brought home, till that very morning and she wasn’t acting fine at all. So, he checked her out, drove her down the street a little and became very concerned. Once home we called the repair shop to tell them what was going on. He gave us the number of a towing company and said he would pay for the tow. He said he would look at it and see what damage was caused by his shop and take care of that as well as see if anything else was wrong with her. An hour later the tow company came and when they took her onto the truck, my driveway was covered with oil and radiator fluid! Sorry to say, I think he had his work cut out for him. I am certain the young man who actually worked on it, did not have a good day yesterday and maybe not today either. The moral of the story is I am officially grounded, no job  hunting, nothing proactive to do right now to fix the mess I am in. Now it is all about a waiting game, so no excuses today I will do some artwork, while the opportunity is here!

No lottery winnings as yet, need it more than ever. Keep your fingers crossed, I am not turning down a miracle at this point. for sure! Hoping your week if fairing better than mine is at this point, it would make me very sad indeed to know anyone else was, going through this as well. Have a happy day, sending you my love, Diana!/profile.php?id=100000810145663*

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